The losses I encounter in the work that I do will never get any easier, especially when related to addiction. Today was a hard day. Lots of tears shed. My heart hurts for those suffering and it just makes me want to hug my loved ones even more than normal and tell them how much I love them. But I also know that hearing that from me while I’m in crisis is not the time. One day I will have the courage to say what’s in my heart. Today I experienced the loss of someone who was an alcoholic but working to take steps to getting better, they just didn’t know how so they stayed active in their addiction, ultimately not being able to make good choices which led to their death. It’s heartbreaking. Addiction is the worse. I’m thankful for my program because every week I am reminded of tools that help me in the hard moments. Tools that remind me that I only have control over myself and how I behave. It’s difficult to detach with love but necessary for ones own serenity. I couldn’t imagine doing anything different than I am already doing. I know that I am doing the right thing because I am inspiring and modeling hope to those who feel hopeless. I know that I made a difference in this persons life. I know that because of me, they smiled more often. I know that because of sharing my own story, this person felt comfortable sharing their story to me which offered them healing. And for those things, it’s all worth it, even on the hardest days like today. Days like today lead me more into figuring out how I can continue what I’m doing and incorporating it into this business. I’m grateful for the individuals this morning that are excited for this project and want to participate in any way to make things happen. It really is just a matter of time. And until that time comes, I shall continue research and development. Stay tuned, more to come!